Fic - I Wept Not [16/24]

Summary: Jasper is a war weary soldier burdened by the weight of eternity. Edward is an uncomplicated high school student content to hide his sexuality. Together can Jasper find something to live for and Edward discover some things are worth dying for? AU, slash.

Chapter 15 | Masterpost


"My tears are like the quiet drift
Of petals from some magic rose;
And all my grief flows from the rift
Of unremembered skies and snows.

I think, that if I touched the earth,
It would crumble;
It is so sad and beautiful,
So tremulously like a dream."

- Dylan Thomas, "Clown in the Moon"

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Chapter 16 – From the Rift

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Fic - I Wept Not [17/24]

Summary: Jasper is a war weary soldier burdened by the weight of eternity. Edward is an uncomplicated high school student content to hide his sexuality. Together can Jasper find something to live for and Edward discover some things are worth dying for? AU, slash.

Chapter 16 | Masterpost


"I love the handful of the earth you are.
Because of its meadows, vast as a planet,
I have no other star. You are my replica
of the multiplying universe."

- Pablo Neruda, "Sonnet XVI," l. 1-4

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Chapter 17 – The Multiplying Universe

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Fic - I Wept Not [18/24]

Summary: Jasper is a war weary soldier burdened by the weight of eternity. Edward is an uncomplicated high school student content to hide his sexuality. Together can Jasper find something to live for and Edward discover some things are worth dying for? AU, slash.

Chapter 17 | Masterpost


"Miracle's truck comes down the little avenue,
Scott Joplin ragtime strewn behind it like pearls,
and, yes, you can feel happy
with one piece of your heart."

- Adrienne Rich, "Miracle Ice Cream," l. 1-4

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Chapter 18 – One Piece of Your Heart

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Fic - I Wept Not [19/24]

Summary: Jasper is a war weary soldier burdened by the weight of eternity. Edward is an uncomplicated high school student content to hide his sexuality. Together can Jasper find something to live for and Edward discover some things are worth dying for? AU, slash.

Chapter 18 | Masterpost


"But when I hold you I hold everything that is—
sand, time, the tree of rain"

- Pablo Neruda, "Sonnet VIII," l. 10-11

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Chapter 19 – Everything That Is

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Fic - I Wept Not [20/24]

Summary: Jasper is a war weary soldier burdened by the weight of eternity. Edward is an uncomplicated high school student content to hide his sexuality. Together can Jasper find something to live for and Edward discover some things are worth dying for? AU, slash.

Chapter 19 | Masterpost


"if there are any heavens my mother will (all by herself) have
one. It will not be a pansy heaven nor
a fragile heaven of lilies-of-the-valley but
it will be a heaven of blackred roses"

- e.e. cummings, "XLIII," l. 1-4

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Chapter 20 – A Heaven of Blackred Roses

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Fic - I Wept Not [21/24]

Summary: Jasper is a war weary soldier burdened by the weight of eternity. Edward is an uncomplicated high school student content to hide his sexuality. Together can Jasper find something to live for and Edward discover some things are worth dying for? AU, slash.

Chapter 20 | Masterpost


"to be a discoverer you hold close whatever
you find, and after a while you decide
what it is. Then, secure in where you have been,
you turn to the open sea and let go."

- William Stafford, "Security," l. 12-15

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Chapter 21 – Turn to the Open Sea

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Fic - I Wept Not [22/24]

Summary: Jasper is a war weary soldier burdened by the weight of eternity. Edward is an uncomplicated high school student content to hide his sexuality. Together can Jasper find something to live for and Edward discover some things are worth dying for? AU, slash.

Chapter 21 | Masterpost


"I have embalmed the days,
Even the sacred moments when we played,
All innocent of passion, uncorrupt,
At noon and evening in the flame-heart's shade.
We were so happy, happy, I remember,
Beneath the poinsettia's red in warm December."

- Claude McKay, "Flame-Heart," l. 25-30

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Chapter 22 – The Sacred Moments

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Fic - I Wept Not [23/24]

Summary: Jasper is a war weary soldier burdened by the weight of eternity. Edward is an uncomplicated high school student content to hide his sexuality. Together can Jasper find something to live for and Edward discover some things are worth dying for? AU, slash.

Chapter 22 | Masterpost


"Night is the shadow of my father's hands
setting the clock for resurrection.
Or is it the clock unraveled, the numbers flown?
There's nothing that hasn't found home there:
discarded wings, lost shoes, a broken alphabet.
Everything but sleep. And night begins
with the first beheading
of the jasmine."

-Li-Young Lee, "Pillow", l. 15-22

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Chapter 23 - The First Beheading of the Jasmine

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Fic - I Wept Not [24/24]

Summary: Jasper is a war weary soldier burdened by the weight of eternity. Edward is an uncomplicated high school student content to hide his sexuality. Together can Jasper find something to live for and Edward discover some things are worth dying for? AU, slash.

Chapter 23 | Masterpost


"There where the waves shatter on the restless rocks
the clear light bursts and enacts its rose,
and the sea-circle shrinks to a cluster of buds,
to one drop of blue salt, falling.

O bright magnolia bursting in the foam,
magnetic transient whose death blooms
and vanishes-being, nothingness-forever:
broken salt, dazzling lurch of the sea.

You & I, Love, together we ratify the silence,
while the sea destroys its perpetual statues,
collapses its towers of wild speed and whiteness:

because in the weavings of those invisible fabrics,
galloping water, incessant sand,
we make the only permanent tenderness."

- Pablo Neruda, "Sonnet IX"

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Chapter 24 – Permanent Tenderness

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Fic - I Wept Not Outtake - After the Battle

Title: I Wept Not Outtake - After the Battle
Fandom: Twilight
Pairing: Jasper/Peter/Maria
Warnings: language, graphic sexuality
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 2,437
Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. No copyright infringement is intended.
Summary: A little smut outtake set prior to the events of I Wept Not during Jasper’s days in Maria’s army. AU, M/M/F.
Author's Note: This outtake was written as a birthday gift, but never posted to FFn. I wasn't entirely happy with it because I felt it didn't have the emotional resonance I wanted. I had planned to eventually expand it with more of Peter's background and how he came to be in Maria's army. Obviously, that never happened, but I decided to post it here for anyone who might have missed it the first time around. Special thanks, as always, to my wonderful friend and beta, otta_ff.

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